Moving On

I find it hard to continue with previous blogs when my life has changed so much from things that go on in the posts. As a result, I have many blogs. Hopefully this one will keep me a little more focused now that I lack a job. That's right, I have finally quit my job. I've hated it for months, and while I will miss the people there, I feel 200 times better now that I'm not stressing out about things there.

So this is tothenextstep. I got the idea when I was thinking about moving forward, and a scene in one of my favourite movies (American Pie). If you haven't caught the reference by now, please go watch the movie. For shame.

This is Day Two of my unemployment. It's been a good week thus far. Yesterday, I went to audit my friend's Abnormal Psychology class. It has led me to believe that when I take Psych, I will spend four years going 'oh my god, I HAVE THAT.' I think that we all have these symptoms though, it's just... seeing how intense they are, or how much they affect your life, which leads you to actually have this disease. But I'll leave my theories to a later date, when I've actually taken some classes. The point is, I'm excited.

After the class, we headed to this bar at the top of (possibly SUB?) a building.. Had rum n coke and nachos at 11am (I do so love being unemployed) and stared at the view. It's amazing. When I finally get to the U, I will be spending a lot of time there. Not for the bar. (Well, maybe for the bar.) But mostly for the view. Edmonton is amazing. Absolutely amazing. It's easy to forget this when you're ground level, amongst the smog and cars and assholes.

We talked a lot.. a good two hours, really. About life and sex and coming out and.. all the things I've never gotten to talk to anyone about before, because I don't know many gay/bi people. The few I know, I could talk to them about, but it's never really come up, y'know?

I miss having deep or life-related conversations. I don't get to do it very often anymore, and it definitely makes my day. Although it gives me a lot to think about for the next few days.

Today, I applied for the Bachelor of Science program at Grant Mac Ewan. I'm a little nervous, I won't lie. Who's to say I'll even get in. But I wouldn't be surprised if I do.. not because I have excellent grades or anything - Just that my life tends to take random turns and runs with it. Moving to BC. The job at APS. Moving out. Moving back in. Quitting. It just.. all happens so fast. Not that I have a problem with that; it keeps me on my feet. I get bored doing one thing for too long, I guess.

I also started working out again. I've made some decisions, since I can't really do anything until I know if I get accepted, I will be working out again (I have all the time in the world.. if I didn't, I'd be a little annoyed with myself.) as well as working on my guitar and training my puppy more. He's a genius, it won't be hard.

So, today, as a start - 150 crunches, like, 8 push-ups, and about 5 minutes jumping rope... plus me and the boy's usual 45 minute walk, which we will be taking after I shower. For shame, self. How did I let this happen?

Here's to the next step.